I feel I have always been fat!
Although I know this isn't so,
life used to be running and playing,
with no cares or woes.

Food was to keep our stomachs full,
not to nourish our bodies or souls.
Always tasty, mum did her best
but poverty dictates how well you grow.

My body craves childish treats.
Eating is an obsession.
Feeling proud to eat a protein bar
and not a snickers.

Maybe I should succumb.
A glass of wine,
how can grape juice be bad?
It will stop me going mad.

Gym and swim
and long walks in the snow, 
doesn't seem to decrease
the weight burden I have on show.

Stefanie Lillie
(copyright 2023)